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In Writing from the Heart,  Nancy Slonim Aronte writes, "I grew up in a house without process.  I never saw anyone get better at anything.  I didn't even know you could get better at anything.  I never saw anyone practice anything.  I didn't even know what practice was.  If you weren't good at something right away, there was no point in doing it."

Wow!  Instead of feeling isolated & deprived, I suddenly realized that other people had similar stories to mine.  I was part of a sisterhood, not some isolated aberration.  

That felt comforting.  And empowering.  Like Nancy, I am taking a closer look at my lack of connection with process.  Like her, this isn't the first time I decided to gird myself to the task & face down my lack.  Like her,this time I'm sticking to it.  

Ability to process seems to be one of the primary qualities of people I admire - Dave & Candy and Emily Jane stand out in my mind.  They seem to know when to work, when to kick back & let loose.  Maybe their knack is in living fully in the moment, in doing each thing in its time rather than trying to tote a lazy man's load of wishes & dreams.

It is a daunting challenge to become friends with process in your 60s.  I could give dozens of reasons why I never learned the value of process, the steps & dynamics.  Waste of time & energy!  I don't want to reinforce & underscore what hasn't worked in my life.  No use served in examining the messages sent & received, the dynamics of unconstructed living, the upsy downess of day to day life.  

Process is how we get done what needs to be done.  Now, however long it takes, however often I have to commit & recommit, it is time to make mine what hasn't been.  I don't care about the ancient roots of my problem as long as I can work on producing fresh growth & blossoms.  Stay tuned!